I’m someone who always needs a rock to push against.
It keeps me motivated. But not in the best way.
Let me explain.
I don't love being a business owner—I just don't want a real job.
I'm not motivated by sobriety—I just don't want to drink.
I don't need to be skinny—I just don't want to be out of shape.
The "I just don't…" has been the flame under my ass for a long time. In a lot of ways it needed to be. I had to make changes and I'm an all or nothing kind of guy—I need those definitive light switch moments.
I can't have a job and a side hustle. I can't have just one beer. Jog a few times a week? No, there's a Peloton in the apartment.
And so I push against the obstacle and go all in.
The problem is—and I'll stick to business for now—I'm never sure where this is actually going. It's terrible for goal setting.
Where do I want to see my business? How do I set a goal and work backwards from there to achieve it?
I know there's a rock behind me. But what's the path forward?
I don't have the answer yet, but I'm working on adjusting my mindset—trying to see the future instead of just running from the past.